Last night.. was a long time in a while since i’ve got a visit from my beloved grandma. I missed her so much, the thought of her constantly crosses my mind. I remember when she first passed away, all i wanted to do was sleep so that I could see her in my dreams… it was the only way possible for me to be at peace, being asleep awaiting for my grandma. I know it sounds weird, but idk.. it’s not to me. I just wish I could see her again, call her, hug her, laugh with her, do things for her… etc etc. =’( everything happened so fast, i didn”t know how to grasp it all.
I dislike the fact that the memories of dreams fade so quickly, but the most i can remember from last night was that.. my mama was in a room with someone, dont remember who, i walked in… we saw eachother.. and then BAM* we immediately hugged and ran to eachother, crying. I guess you could say, tears of joy and sadness… bittersweet. ahh, it just felt so real.. her hug. the tears. the exchange of the “i miss you’s”.. everything. I wish she was here, physically. But I know, I’ve accepted, we’ve all accepted that it was God’s calling.. she couldn’t take it any more. Seeing her last night… she was so happy, so much healthier looking. Not even a pinch of sick and weak looking. It just reassures me, that she is doing okay, she is happy… and most importantly, she is watching over us…
My guardian angel, I love you.. i miss you. Visit me soon okay mama?
