get to be where i NEED and WANT to be?
Seem’s so out of reach.
i feel like i am wasting my time here in school while there are a lot others who are already in their programs and some— about to graduate. I have a friend… she came to EWU my sophomore year - winter quarter, making her a freshman. Which means from then til now, she’s had 5 quarters here.. and i’ve had 9 quarters here. She.. which i am absolutely proud and happy for.. got into her Dental Hygiene program, and is starting the end of this month. Okay…. well? i guess it’s not good to compare since one’s own life journey is different than another. But wow, Eileen…. really? I did work my ass off, as much as i could… i did everything i possibly could.. what then. im just not good enough? i hate feeling like a loser…. a complete loser. This is my senior yr in college and some of my friends (here) are graduating this yr! wow. i wish i could even say im close to graduating. or better yet, know the EXPECTED DATE of my graduation. here i stand, knowing none. nothing. nada. i guess i really did F of my intereview huh, WSU? ;( or am i just not white and blond hair enough? LOL ok totally kidding about that. But oh maaaaaaaan.. i just want to stop dreaming and start LIVING my goals.
ok, sorry for my pitiful rant.
