Eileen M.: Archive

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May 12th

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I heard the simplest, yet sweetest words yesterday….

Apr 23rd

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the pain doesn't go away, you just make room for...

i probably haven’t been in the best mood or been happy recently… i guess everything thats was bothering me then is STILL bothering me now.. back to haunt and torture me. i also probably haven’t been posting “happy” things either.. and i try to not do that kind of stuff but sometimes i cant help it, especially when i bottle things up and keep it to myself. …...

Apr 18th

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Back to square one. I thought I was okay, apparently I’m not. Hah.

Apr 9th

its quite strange that i no longer know how to act, react, or talk to him anymore. :( i sit there staring at my phone screen trying to think of what to say or how to say what i want to say.. or typing and retyping. ugh, it’s so dumb i hate it.

Mar 5th

Mar 2nd

Mar 1st

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Feb 29th

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Feb 28th

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Feb 28th

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going a little nuts..

im going to be okay, right?.. eventually. it’ll take time, i know. i just want to be back to my normal independent self! its hard, you know… being with him everyday & doing things with him.. and then now. i cant see him when i wanna, or call him when i wanna.. or talk to him when i wanna.. i cant run to him.. etc etc. its just hard to pretend like he was never a part of my life...

Feb 24th

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So many mixed emotions. I don’t like the feeling of uncertainty.

Feb 14th

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Feb 12th

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p.s, TUMBLR will be my new TWITTER/facebook. hah, i guess i feel like i have more privacy on here.. and i can block out certain ppl. and i can vent and what not… so who the eff cares. please do not mind my posts or future posts here on out…… “stage 7, breaking up”..

Feb 12th

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Sometimes change can be a good thing, if you let it. Pick up the pieces and move on, right? - Not that easy.

Feb 11th

I honestly don’t believe there’s a SPECIFIC one for you. Granted there might be, but it can happen with anyone. It really depends on HOW you deal with certain problems in the relationship, and how as an individual you deal with it yourself. It depends on the willingness to work things out, learning from each others mistakes, affection, and communication. Of course there isn’t a...

Feb 9th

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Feb 8th

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Im going to miss everything we had and all the memories we shared. That’s what is hurting me the most. As they say.. All good things come to an end.

Feb 8th

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I grew too much love, for him. And it’s frightening to question if he’s “the one.”

Feb 8th

i dont know how...

to deal with this… and i feel like im overreacting but i seriously do not know what to do.

Jan 31st

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Jan 25th

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My fucking weakness is...

audzarelly: that I care too much. About EVERYTHING. idk exactly what you’re talking about (BUT I AM A PHONE CALL AWAY!)….. but this is exactly what i feel.. right about.. now. *sigh. #Life

Jan 25th

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why the f*ck

do i allow myself to get in these situations.. or better yet, tolerate it??

Jan 25th

Oct 27th

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im not one,

to talk or vent about my relationship to social networks like this. But, i really wish i had someone i could just turn to and just rant … and cry to… and just have them listen to what i have to say. I miss my girls. I’d love for them to be here right now, at this moment.. at a time like this. Sigh…

Oct 27th

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Oct 27th

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Oct 25th

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Oct 23rd

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im going to have a breakdown.

this week i think we are getting our nursing interview letters - Step 1 in the process of being accepted. all this nurse talk and what not is giving me jitters.. anxiety.. butterflies.. and this anticipation is not helping. yeah this is my 2nd time applying.. -___- and i do not know what i am going to do with myself if this time around will again put me on the wait list or what if i dont even get...

Oct 11th

Oct 4th

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:(

I have been in denial for a while… i know i am detached from church & our Lord- im sorry, i WILL change that. I need to, soon.

Sep 20th

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Sep 16th

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Saying 'sex' in school

fauxxe: Kindergarten: Middle School: High School: College: I literally laughed my ass off! HAHAH!! that really was my reaction when i was little!! lol 0__0

Sep 16th

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every time something goes good..

it ALWAYS goes wrong.

Sep 16th

Will i ever..

get to be where i NEED and WANT to be? Seem’s so out of reach. i feel like i am wasting my time here in school while there are a lot others who are already in their programs and some— about to graduate. I have a friend… she came to EWU my sophomore year - winter quarter, making her a freshman. Which means from then til now, she’s had 5 quarters here.. and i’ve had 9...

Sep 14th

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Aug 30th

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Aug 29th

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it's a wrap!

Summerrrrr ‘11 is coming to a close end! Well, here at home that is! I’d say this was one of the most eventful summers.. maybe because being 21 yrs old is a door to new things! and new scenes! haha. Leaving on Friday already and i’m really gonna miss home, my fam, and the night life, thanks to my girls! and bc Spokane/Cheney, WA does not cut it when it comes to that!...

Aug 28th

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Aug 28th

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everything will be okay in the end. If it's not...

I rarely write any blogs but i just have to rant. Anyway, my hopes and dreams have been shattered a little, since i was only granted the “wait-list” for WSU’s College of Nursing. BIG womp. i mean, i had a goood feeling i wasn’t gonna get in this time around, bc it was the harder pool to get in to.. and Spring term (January) is supposedly easier. im jealous. sad. and...

Aug 28th